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I pressed the button on my box last week.

I did it with full confidence, despite knowing that I would hurt someone- for all I know, I could have even killed someone. I- I can't I can't say I don't regret it, now that I've received nothing except guilt, but... you have to realize that I had to do it. I have to go home to Victoria. Don't all of you understand? I can't remain here and spend unnecessary hours waiting, not when I've got less than a week left. Less than a weak to determine the rest of my life.

The right thing to do- the way I can make up for it all, would be to give away my mushroom. Remember that incident with the bear? I still have it on me-- that magical mushroom which can restore a single life. And to consider how many people have died even this month...

But I won't be giving it to anyone. I need to save it for Yvaine or myself because how could I deliver a star to Victoria if the star dies? It's not so unlikely at this point- I suppose living forever's enough to make some people do just about anything, but all I want is Victoria.

If I can't win Victoria's hand in marriage, then what else do I have? The humdrum of mediocrity day in and day out?

I'm just a shopboy, you know. You can't expect so much out of me.

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Date: 2009-11-29 08:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] treadingdawn.livejournal.com
Are you sure about the mushroom?

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Date: 2009-11-29 08:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gazingup.livejournal.com
I'm sure.

No matter the friends I make here, what truly matters is keeping Yvaine safe for Victoria and returning home.

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Date: 2009-11-29 08:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] treadingdawn.livejournal.com
I see. Well it is admirable that you would want to keep Yvaine safe. I didn't think stars could be killed, but that is a very wrong presumption to make.

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Date: 2009-11-29 08:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gazingup.livejournal.com
Stars live forever, but they're not infallible. And it's not... it's not to keep her safe for her own sake- it's just for Victoria.

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Date: 2009-11-29 08:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] treadingdawn.livejournal.com
What would it take for you to part with the mushroom?

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Date: 2009-11-29 11:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nobodyneedknow.livejournal.com
My, aren't we dramatic.

Date: 2009-11-29 08:36 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gazingup.livejournal.com
Sometimes you can be a downright jerk, Dorian.

Date: 2009-11-29 08:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nobodyneedknow.livejournal.com
And yet I'm being perfectly honest.

Date: 2009-11-29 08:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gazingup.livejournal.com
I'm cursed. I can't control what comes from my mouth.

You, on the other hand.

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Date: 2009-11-29 08:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] nobodyneedknow.livejournal.com
Why would I? You intend to give Yvaine to another woman to win her affection.

The only interesting part about that is the idea of two women together. Other than that, it reeks of desperation.

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Date: 2009-11-29 03:24 pm (UTC)
adamantined: (PRODIGY)
From: [personal profile] adamantined
This is the second time I've heard about this button.

Date: 2009-11-29 08:47 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gazingup.livejournal.com
It's better that you don't find out more. You might change your mind about a few people here.

I've- I've seen you around before.

Date: 2009-11-30 01:08 am (UTC)
adamantined: (MEDUSA)
From: [personal profile] adamantined
It's not really my style to just ignore something like that.

Really?

Date: 2009-11-29 04:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kitschempress.livejournal.com
I too returned home, though perhaps for more selfish reasons than you. But no matter the reason, those who try to make one feel guilty for such actions... They are not without flaw themselves. Let he without sin throw the first stone.

You knew the consequences, you made your own choice. No one has a right to pass judgment on that except for God himself.

Date: 2009-11-29 08:54 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gazingup.livejournal.com
I made my decision, and I may only regret it because I received nothing, but I have the means to make up for it. Nevertheless, I do feel guilty-- I do judge myself for pressing the button.

But I won't give anyone the mushroom.
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Date: 2009-11-29 10:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 2ndnightshift.livejournal.com
You're only as humdrum as you let yourself be.

audio | sldhf that icon lsjdhf /dies

Date: 2009-11-29 11:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gazingup.livejournal.com
Which is exactly why I'll never give up on Victoria.

audio | o r l y? ahahahha

Date: 2009-11-29 11:18 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] 2ndnightshift.livejournal.com
What about for you, though? What's she doing for you?

audio | it looks so stuffy and proper

Date: 2009-11-29 11:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gazingup.livejournal.com
She's... she's giving me the chance to marry her?

audio | dan is living the dream

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Date: 2009-11-30 05:56 am (UTC)
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I did listen to myself.

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Date: 2009-11-30 05:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] gazingup.livejournal.com
Well, there you are. Almost thought you went off and got your heart cut out.

THIS NOTIF DID NOT COME IN.

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