❂ eighth | audio post
Nov. 29th, 2009 01:38 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
gazingupI pressed the button on my box last week.
I did it with full confidence, despite knowing that I would hurt someone- for all I know, I could have even killed someone. I- I can't I can't say I don't regret it, now that I've received nothing except guilt, but... you have to realize that I had to do it. I have to go home to Victoria. Don't all of you understand? I can't remain here and spend unnecessary hours waiting, not when I've got less than a week left. Less than a weak to determine the rest of my life.
The right thing to do- the way I can make up for it all, would be to give away my mushroom. Remember that incident with the bear? I still have it on me-- that magical mushroom which can restore a single life. And to consider how many people have died even this month...
But I won't be giving it to anyone. I need to save it for Yvaine or myself because how could I deliver a star to Victoria if the star dies? It's not so unlikely at this point- I suppose living forever's enough to make some people do just about anything, but all I want is Victoria.
If I can't win Victoria's hand in marriage, then what else do I have? The humdrum of mediocrity day in and day out?
I'm just a shopboy, you know. You can't expect so much out of me.
I did it with full confidence, despite knowing that I would hurt someone- for all I know, I could have even killed someone. I- I can't I can't say I don't regret it, now that I've received nothing except guilt, but... you have to realize that I had to do it. I have to go home to Victoria. Don't all of you understand? I can't remain here and spend unnecessary hours waiting, not when I've got less than a week left. Less than a weak to determine the rest of my life.
The right thing to do- the way I can make up for it all, would be to give away my mushroom. Remember that incident with the bear? I still have it on me-- that magical mushroom which can restore a single life. And to consider how many people have died even this month...
But I won't be giving it to anyone. I need to save it for Yvaine or myself because how could I deliver a star to Victoria if the star dies? It's not so unlikely at this point- I suppose living forever's enough to make some people do just about anything, but all I want is Victoria.
If I can't win Victoria's hand in marriage, then what else do I have? The humdrum of mediocrity day in and day out?
I'm just a shopboy, you know. You can't expect so much out of me.
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Date: 2009-11-29 08:50 pm (UTC)The only interesting part about that is the idea of two women together. Other than that, it reeks of desperation.
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Date: 2009-11-29 08:58 pm (UTC)[ pause ]
Perhaps it's desperation, but sometimes that is what love requires.
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Date: 2009-11-29 09:00 pm (UTC)This doesn't sound like love on her part, to me.
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Date: 2009-11-29 09:04 pm (UTC)You don't understand, Dorian.
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Date: 2009-11-29 09:05 pm (UTC)I wouldn't question about what I know or don't know about love.
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Date: 2009-11-29 09:09 pm (UTC)And you shouldn't question Victoria or my feelings for her.
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Date: 2009-11-29 09:10 pm (UTC)I didn't question your feelings for her. Women who ask impossible things of men are seldom interested in their love, however.
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Date: 2009-11-29 09:14 pm (UTC)You call it an impossible thing, and yet you're living with one right now. A star who can walk and talk and feel.
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Date: 2009-11-29 09:16 pm (UTC)Because that is frequently what women desire when they ask for a gift. Competition.
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Date: 2009-11-29 09:18 pm (UTC)Victoria's not stupid.
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Date: 2009-11-29 09:19 pm (UTC)Private;
Date: 2009-11-29 09:21 pm (UTC)Private;
Date: 2009-11-29 09:21 pm (UTC)Private;
Date: 2009-11-29 09:27 pm (UTC)Private;
Date: 2009-11-29 09:29 pm (UTC)One day, presumably, you will return home and one meet your Victoria once more. Or perhaps she will come here. Correct?
Should we meet after that happy golden day, and should you be right, I will form an apology. I'll even make it sincere.
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Date: 2009-11-29 09:34 pm (UTC)But fine, I accept your wager.
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Date: 2009-11-29 09:35 pm (UTC)